Beginning

Ever have trouble getting something started? Well, that is how I feel about this blog...I registered about 5 days ago with the intentions of getting something on to it straight away....However, as is typical for most everything I do, I encountered a sense of reluctance to begin the process. This reluctance forms a theme for many aspects of my life. I was reluctant to commit my life to Christ, reluctant to go to college, reluctant to evaluate my life and deal with those issues that were holding me back. You would think that I would have learned by now that the good stuff only comes after I have put aside my reluctance and stepped out in faith!
Considering my life before and after coming into relationship with Christ (at 31 years of age...I was quite stubborn in my reluctance) there really is no comparison - it was the difference between feeling dead and feeling alive. God breathed life into the depths of my being where there had been hibernation, stagnation and lifelessness.
My reluctance to go to college also has proven to be unwise. The best time of my life, the time when I grew the most, learned the most about God, life and myself, and developed the closest most intimate and real relationships, has been my time at graduate school...who would have thought! Likewise, it was not until I moved beyond fear (which fed my reluctance) and faced the demons of my past, took an honest look at my life and allowed my heart to be known, that I became fully alive and discovered the joy in life.
If, like me, you are hesitant to begin your journey, let me encourage you. It may be painful, and sometimes you may feel that you are moving backwards, or not moving at all, but as you begin you too will discover the gift of life...just remember, this journey begins and ends with Christ - in Him all things are possible!!